My ongoing process acts as a channel of my experiences. Growing up partially in a Chinese orphanage and later adopted into an American family, unpredictable moments were felt to be reflected in found materials. Owing to my constant curiosity about the world of unknown, I pursued experimentation. The results can be unappealing or alienating. In my work, I hope to express the uncertainties and reveal the way it affects our daily choices and create an intuitive form of visual poetry.

My sensitivity to materials is both conscious and unconscious; something familiar becoming unfamiliar. What holds in a material buries another. Somewhere in between, the between blurs; how a perceived memory shifts, then alters, as a ghost itself lives in a state of receding. When a feeling emerges, my familiarity with material triggers my memory; whether my memory plays through a moment of trauma, violence, or a sense of care, my thinking process follows. A natural order flows. An arrangement shapes to its color within time.

When I was found and brought to the orphanage, I had a growing tumor resided on my right-side eye. After the removal, I now live with my one blind eye. Following through my adoption and came to the U.S. at an age 11, I was found with a brain tumor soon after. The unpredicted happenings allowed me to lean in. An aura of feelings sits, stands, and walks. Something uncanny feeling creates to one’s life existence.

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